starting now I'm starting over.

yeah, I’m a little weighed down, but I’m doing my best

So my amazing roommate Sarah recently made a tumblr and has been encouraging me to start posting again so here goes nothing but get ready this is probably gonna be an angsty one.

So far this semester has been great, yeah I know it has only been two weeks but usually when a semester starts out this well it is not very likely that it will suddenly change dramatically. One of the best parts of this semester has been how dedicated I have become to working out. I have been to the gym nine of the past ten days and I am just really loving how I am feeling. I am feeling better about myself, more confident, and overall just healthier. I am seeing results, I am sure that they are not dramatic enough to be noticed by others but I can just see that I am getting much more toned and I am looking forward to continuing my workout routine and seeing even more results.

Okay I guess this is now where the post takes the angsty turn. As much as I am loving this semester I can’t help but look to the next few months which always seem to hit me hard and negatively. It just seems like there are a million things coming up that remind me of my dad. His birthday is coming up in a couple weeks and then march 1st is the anniversary of his death. I have been thinking about it so much lately and I can not believe that is has been ten years. I don’t think it has gotten any easier and I don’t think that it ever will.

Okay enough with the depressing stuff, sorry to anyone who had to read that. But really don’t read too much into that angst I am really doing good and this year has been great definitely my favorite year at fairfield so far and I am sure this semester will continue in the same way.

So now I am going to go back to bonding with Sarah who is probably going to read this in like two minutes and continue to wonder why sofia is blaming me for her hurt butt…

Just heard my brother’s street on the news as a place that has flooded. Awesome, he just moved in less then a week ago and now it flooded. Also he is working today in one of the worst areas, at least his job involves live tweeting the storm so I know hes okay. 

Really glad that my brother just moved into a house at the beach in fairfield where the storm is going to hit the hardest…

• I think I screwed up my interview today/don’t have enough design experience and I can’t get past it even though I know there is nothing I can do about it. I just want to find out if I did or didn’t get it so I can stop stressing about it. 
• At least even if I don’t get the internship I will still probably have the babysitting job and I can make some money. 
• Or maybe I won’t get that one either.
• Nine days until I move back to Fairfield.
• I have mixed feelings about going back. I am excited for my apartment and the people but also nervous for so many reasons. But more excited then nervous.
• Seriously can I please stop the entire interview conversation from constantly running through my mind?

I can’t believe that I am going to be a junior in college. It seems like yesterday that I was starting college and now I am about to enter my third year, how is that even possible? I am completely excited for this year and my apartment and I just feel like it is going to be my best year yet but I am also terrified by how fast time is going. My brother is officially moving out and into an apartment this week and I am almost 21. How did we get so old? On another note I think I probably have a job for the school year which means I can finally start making money after working an unpaid internship all summer and thankfully I only have three more days of the internship because I was starting to go crazy there. But seriously how is the summer pretty much over?